I feel like someone pressed the fast forward button for my life. The past few weeks have been going by ridiculously fast. Let's put this in perspective:
Four weeks ago, I was in Florida, visiting my mom's aunt.
Three weeks ago, I was in Georgia meeting up with Lyndsey.
Two weeks ago, I was in Pennsylvania visiting more family.
Last week, school started.
And this week, Brad will be here until Tuesday (he's been here since Friday).
It's all been such a blur, I haven't had the time to let anything sink in, I feel like I'm forgetting everything that transpired this summer. I know it was so amazing, but I feel like an outsider looking in. I haven't had the time to really appreciate how utterly life-changing this experience has been for me. I'm a much more independent person than I was and I'm working more toward my goal of being prepared to study abroad next year.
As soon as Brad leaves, I'm cutting all my hair off and going on a job hunt.
First day of my sophomore year today, I feel shitty thanks to back problems and waking up super early for what turned out to be no reason, because I got used to one schedule then had to change all my classes last minute. Out of the three I've had today, I like two of them, Renaissance, Baroque, & Rococo Art History and Introduction to Philosophy. The history professor looks like a bald Gandalf and has the exact same voice as the guy who is talking in the beginning of Godspeed You! Black Emperor's "Sleep." He likes to ramble. Philosophy teacher is really cool and I made a friend who is in that class and Physics. Physics looks like it will be a painful experience, but I have to take some sort of science and this is the only one that interests me. The professor is Middle Eastern and English is totally his second, third... tenth language? Point is, he can't speak it well, at all, he mumbles, and likes to abbreviate everything in Greek lettering.
On another note, I like Death Cab for Cutie now. What?!
Thanks for the nice comments, that was the happiest week of my entire life.
I started a Twitter today out of the boredom that ensued from my dad being late returning home from work. Today was OUR day. It was Fill Out Paperwork For My Passport Day (never forget!). He's still not back. I'm still bored. Here's an update. Here's a link to the Twitter thing.
Exactly as I feared would happen, I feel like something's missing now, between Lyndsey and I. I was in Pennsylvania for the weekend, two days after I had to leave her. It made the distance feel... really distant. It's been a week and she tells me she loves me, but I feel like she's falling out of it, and I don't know what to trust. I need to find something really special to hold her over until I can see her again around Christmas. Any ideas, Vox? Distance makes me feel like the shittiest boyfriend ever.
In this past month, I've been on four trips and have only spent maybe seven or eight nights in my own bed. Every morning, it's so difficult to get out of bed, I feel so sore and shitty. I feel lonely. Really lonely. I have something like six days left until college starts and I was hoping that they would be uhhh... quality days! But it doesn't look that way. I have a birthday party on the 24th to look forward to, at least
Right now my goals for this year are as follows:
Now- get passport, get a job, actually apply myself in college and get good marks.
December- Visit Lyndsey in Canada, no matter what.
January- Move out of house and move in somewhere on campus and try the whole 'independent' thing. Apply to schools in Guelph.
Spring Break- Find some way of getting Lyndsey down to NC.
June- Move to Canada.
I finally get to meet up with Lyndsey tomorrow and stay with her for like a week. There's some complications going on regarding it, but everything should turn out okay.
I am so happy!!!
