17 posts tagged “it's a beautiful day”

Let's make a list of happy things! (I give like half-credit to Charlie for this)

• This time last week, I got a sweet new laptop from Office Depot. It's sparkly red, has 3gb of RAM, and is actually AWARE that it has a disc drive and webcam.
• What was wrong with my previous laptop?
• I installed Nero 8 on it and the next time I started the laptop up, it never knew it had a disc drive afterwards.
• The first time I ever restarted the thing, from that point on, the driver for the webcam got corrupted or something and I couldn't access it except through Stickam (what?). It showed up in my hardware list as "USB Device" or something equally vague, so there was no real hope of doing anything about it.
• The graphics card SUCKED. I was using the thing to make my art, but everything I made on it looked strange on other computers. Looking closely at any image, it was easy to see the lines of one color making up a fade effect, etc.
• The battery life was about 50 minutes, tops.
• One of my best friends is coming home from some sort of advanced weapons training and we're hanging out on Sunday! I can't wait!
  
• I missed the last time he was here, but I refuse to this time!
• My artwork has been showing clear improvement lately.
• My book gets printed this weekend.
  
• I have a dream girl.
  
• She lives in Canada.
• But we're making definite, concrete plans to meet up this summer!
• (yes, she's actually a real person)
• Robotic Empire reprinted Pageninetynine T-shirts! :D
  
• I just got ice cream!
  

I slept through everything. It was incredible.

Everything in my life is perfect and I feel so much better. :D

It's funny how I rarely post here when I'm happy, you know? It's like every time I get sad I go into LiveJournal mode.

My life is great, I had a whole lot of fun last week, made a few dozen new friends, and realized how uncomfortably distant some older friends have become to me. I'm probably getting everything I deserve. I'm full of confidence. My life is finally moving in a direction that MAKES SENSE. I'm getting work, I have a band, I found friends that are meaningful, I found love in goddamn Canada, and it's keeping my life busy and wonderful. Unfortunately, I partied a little too hard, had too much caffeine Sunday night, as a result, I could not sleep, and I got really sick. I'm forced into taking a break right when things were getting good.

Next time someone pays me, I'm getting a Canada jar and a passport.

I'm going to word this in the best way that I possibly can.

Brad is planning on taking me to Atlanta for a double date at an anime convention held at a college.

WHAT.

It'll be Brad and his girlfriend Laura, and if things pan out, I will be dating my online friend Lyndsey, whose mother's boyfriend lives in Atlanta and she will be there by pure coincidence on the same days I will be there, the 15th and 16th of March. I will be missing a day of school on the 17th and riding back up here with Brad on that day. Brad will be staying here afterwards and it will be kickass times for all.

There are a lot of planets aligning lately.

A man walked up to me, looked homeless, graying beard but dark hair. He told me he was going to save the world and he needed ten dollars for a phone card that would let him make a call. He started preaching to me about the war in Iran and chemical warfare, and how the lawd smiles down upon me because I'm such a nice white man. I gave him .02 of the $2.02 + guitar pick I had in my pocket. Good luck on your mission, dude!

I've got a mission of my own. When your conversation with someone breaks out into song and neither party stops because of all the awkward stares in the room pointed at you... you know you've got a good thing going for you. I'm so lame.

Also, new profile picture. Hair.

I got my hair cut and I expect to subsequently lose all of my guitar-playing ability because of this. Pictures will follow once I like how it looks. Right now my hair curled all the way up and it looks like the butch-y haircut a lesbian would get, you know what I mean? Anyway, it's beanies galore until it lays down!

Also, I feel something absolutely amazing coming on.

SOMETHING GO WRONG IN MY LIFE. I DARE YOU.

So much has happened in the last four days, I'm still trying to take it all in. I've been getting everything I want, in small degrees, I just felt like I've been sacrificing so much to get it.

With the the close of my first semester of college on the horizon, I've honestly never felt so accepted, so real to so many people. Despite all the whining of losing what I've had, I've gained so much more. I've completely reevaluated myself in the last four days, I think the events are finally catching up to me and I am finally happy where things are at.

On that note, it is possible that I'll be moving to Raleigh sometime soon. Dad may be getting an extremely well-paying job, and he'd be living in Raleigh and coming home only on the weekends. If we move, it will be the last sacrifice we'll have to make. We'll have a bigger house, and more comfort money. We're so ridiculously tight on money right now with dad being unemployed. I'd be going to NC State and seeing friends who I still mean something to, and I could get that graphic design major there in a four-year setting. It's lined up so perfect, I'm just scared of leaving behind everything that I've worked for this semester and whatever happens next semester.

I guess we'll see.

I cried for the first time in two years.